2%

2% is the amount of body fat I have to loose every week up until the competition. If it wasn't serious before, it is definitely now. Putting it in numbers means something completely different than what this has ever meant to me before. I am currently at 35% body fat which on a female is obese. There is no beating around the bush there. It is time for a change. But on a lighter note, I am also 14 weeks away from the show which my coach says it is definitely do-able. Cardio is now up to twice a day, 6 days a week. And we a gonna mix it up a little more; not for time but just for doing it and pushing myself to the next level. This will be tough but I know I can do it.

Sorry this is short but I am watching the 3 hour finale of America's Biggest Loser! This show is so inspiring and I can't wait to have just some results like them to be noticed again. Although, my coach did say my face looks thinner, haha all is a step in the right direction. Have a great night!

Sorry for going awol... again.

Hello everyone. First off I would like to clear it up that since I have not written in days it does not mean that I missed my workouts. I think this week is the most religious I have been with it since I started. Having a workout partner is the best decision that I ever made! It is so great to have someone there cause I would not be working myself that hard without MJ there.

On a downer, I really haven't been all that great with the meal plan. I am making healthy decisions for myself but not according to the diet. I find it really hard to make sure I get 3 meals a day let alone 6. Hopefully I will be able to tackle that this week. I think my mind is wrapped around gaining weight. I know that if I were to consume 6 meals a day even with the workouts I've been doing, I will still gain weight. I just can not fathom doing something so good for myself like exercising and ruining it by eating. Weight has always been in the back of my mind and I know it has crept back on me in the past few years; I just don't want to get "fat" again :o(

Hello hello hello.

So I think it has been apparent that I haven't written in quite some time. This week has been very hard for me to get motivated and get to the gym. I have but just not as much as I should have been. That will all change tomorrow because my friend has mapped out the entire week of when we will be hitting the gym (thank goodness!) I also told her that I need to up the intensity a little bit and she completely agreed which is great too because I really need to start seeing results. Mentally and emotionally and physically (some what) I am starting to really feel great but I need to get full into it or I can already tell I will drop it quickly. I feel like there are too many things working against me, financially I think is the hardest. All the food, shakes and supplements (which I haven't even began with) are going to cost an arm and a leg but essentially what will get me to the next level. So much to think about and it would be definitely a lot easier if I had some extra cash rolling around. We'll see how the next week goes! I definitely need to get my head wrapped around this more, that is for sure!

The Biggest Loser!

Sometimes I wish I was bigger were I could be on this show (ok maybe that is a huge stretch, I take it back). I know that sounds horrible but I get pumped just by watching it. I just wonder what it would feel like to be there. I would love someone to push me as hard as the Jillian and Bob push the people on that show. That's what I want to do when I grow up. I want to be that person that is going to say something horrible true that you have been denying for years and deep down in your hear you know its right and it makes you want to change. Deep down, I think that I just want to reclaim that little bit of athleticism that I have left in me and teach people at the same time.

Okay, so today I did my workout in the morning and I actually had a partner today. I am a little disappointed in myself, I really thought I could move up in weights today and it didn't really happen. I think the biggest thing I need to remember is rather than keeping the same in weight or dropping it down, to rather ask for help. I just need to keep thinking about the bigger picture and become more focused. It is time to get serious!

So I am sure you are wondering if the diet is in place. I got the official plan today and for the most part today was a successful day. I realized that I don't mind brown rice as much as I thought I did and cooking everything wasn't hard at all and was very easy. We'll see how tomorrow goes!

Diet is in full swing... TOMORROW!

Hello everyone! I know I skipped out on another day of writing. However yesterday I did work out and I completed my first week of the training. Tonight however, I wasn't so lucky. It just has been a long day and I am completely exhausted so I decided to take today as one of my days off and assign the rest of the weeks workouts to a day. It will at least hold me accountable.

As for the diet, I have everything I need now to get me started. I had one last piece of pizza left in the refrigerator so I finished that up for dinner. Now I have nothing left in my refrigerator that I can't eat so I am all set for tomorrow for a day of cooking so I have food for the rest of the week!

Let me tell ya: this is definitely not for the light hearted! I am trying to find time for one workout a day when later down the road I will have 3? This is insane! But I keep thinking I really just want to have that body. I want to have it to prove that I can do it and then inspire people to do the same. I'm not talking about striving to have a figure competitor's body, but having a body that is healthy, that makes you happy, and that you respect. People don't understand you must truly respect something in order for you to truly make a change. And you know what? I want to make this change, and I am more than confident that I deserve it. I know that I have the knowledge of what people should do when working out, now I just want to look like have have the knowledge. There is nothing worse than not practicing what you preach and I don't want to be that person ever again.

Sore!

Hello everyone! Just taking a quick second to write today since my parents and little sister are coming by for a visit and a belated birthday celebration :o) With that being said I think everyone knows this will not be a workout day Or dieting day! haha. Yesterday was back and abs and the only thing that hurts is my calves?! Hopefully my back and abs are sore tomorrow so I at least know I did it right with the right amount of weight! I am starting to think more than ever that I really need someone there to let me know what I should and shouldn't be doing as far as weight goes. I have one more day to complete the 5 day training and then I start it all over again on Monday. Hopefully this time I will be able to pick it up more. Sorry this is such a short one guys! Check back tomorrow!

I almost forgot about you tonight!

Sorry about that! As you probably noticed I did not write yesterday. I ended up not working out because I was so extremely sore. I am convinced I have a bump in my biceps because of them being so inflamed. However I would love to call it a muscle! haha. I figured since there is only 5 days in the workout plan I could take the day off and follow what my body was telling me. I picked it up today though and did shoulders and calves. I think I did it way too light but it at least tells me I should go harder next time.

That's all I have to say for now, but check in tomorrow. I think I will be working out in the morning then laying out in the afternoon. Ahhh, the good life. :o)